The Person Who Inspires Me

Do I Still Have Any Reason to Live? By darol_maranan_07 happen upon? Girolene Garcia. Everyone calls me Gigi. Not only because its my first name, but also becuse its what my initials spell out. 16 years of age. I guess it will rarity in that number. Im about to die any(prenominal) guidance I shall cut myself with this razor, or maybe yet jump from the top of this brass Do I still film any earth to resilient? Everyone satisfys me as worthless woman of this human race. They say I have neer entere anythind good. Depressing, isnt it? why should I carry this heavy impression all throughout my entire life?Living in this world is like universe subjected to eternal damnation. You want to k straightaway why it false out like this? By looking at your baffled expressions, I can see that you desire to know about my decision in termination this life of mine. Well, Sir and Madam please listen carefully to the narration of my life. People brand me as a juvenile delinquent. I am merel y a teenager. Young in both mind and body. unprotected to mistakes and immaturity. In my current state, I am carefree. I swim in the pool of pleasure. I rarely go to school. You could easily spot me at the nearby street at Pauntum.Smoking, singing in the videoke machine or just looking at the cute guyspassing by. Parents? Hmmm. They exist? I wear upont even know that thryre thither. There was this eon when I asked Mom about my science assignment. She answered (God) Damn it Cant you see Im busy preparing for my Tong-its? Yes, she was al elans busy with Mahjong,Tong-its. Those kinds of games I asked tonic the same question. He answered ngrrrhhh Heres ahundred bucks. Go ask your neighbor or your hot teacher ngrrrhhh Father was drinking with the neighbors, as usual. I never had the scoop grades in schoolStill Im in Grade 5. I never really excelled in any part. One time, I was asked by my teacher to answer a maths problem. Ms. Garcia Answer this 90 disassociated by 10?. My teach er told me. I couldnt answer. I dont know the answer. I dont know how to get the answer. Hoping for Lady Luck to save me, I guessed. 19? Each one of my classmates laughed at my stupidity. STUPID IDIOT ITS 19 How Dumb of you Go cornerstone and wash your filthy habiliments Bettr yet Wash your Brain. This is, if you have one? Hysteric laughter fill up the small room. I was humiliated, embarrassed, ashemed.Me, the oldest person of the class, could not even answer a simple mathematical problem. My teacheer yelled You cant even divide 90 by 10 Why bother coming here when you dont even learn? Just go home worthless imbecible That is how my school lifes like. Friends? I have none. Everyone of them loathes me. I tried approaching one. I said with a calm approach. Hi there Can you be my friend? She replie HELL NO Id rather be fat and ugly than being friends with a stupid girl who cant even divide 90 by 10. I asked other people and the replies i got were Eeeww Why should I? There is no source why I should befriend a person like you. If I were you, Id take a bath. You look and smell disgusting. this and that,this and that Guhhh No one wants tobe near me. Each time I hear of such jeers from everyone around me. I weep in depression. What have I done to deserve this kind of castigation? Why did God forsake everything from me? Though I may have the submit of Ann Curtis, the body of Marian Rivera and the voice of Sarah Geronimo (sing A very Special jockey), what you see is not always what you get.What I am is a progeny misled teenage girl, in need of someone to counsel me, to enlighten my way and to guide me towards the right path. Throughout my 16 years of living, I have never encountered that someone. I guess, there may be no reason for me to live. I ask for you judgement. I know somehow that youll blame me for being another bane of this society, reckless and rebellious, but thats my only way to express my demand of attention and love. I cute to scape, I valued to find someone whom I could share story with, someone who would bestowe me the best advice, someone omeone but how? none would bother to heed. I never wanted to live this kind of life, no direction and miserable. what I want now is to be free from all of this. Thats why I came up into a dicision of terminating my life. I am more ready to face finis than to face insults all over again at least when Im gone, I am so much fed up. Maybe, later the long run, people woudld appreciate my existence. So everyone, before its too late Im begging you to answer me, is ther anymore reason for meto live?